a confession...

I'm really anxious for Cade to start doing SOMETHING. I dont care if it's crawling, sitting up on his own, babbling, ENJOYING food, sleeping through the night, ANYTHING! I hear of all these other babies on the September board who are doing ALL of the above and it makes me get squirmish and wonder if something is wrong with Cade, or if I'm doing something wrong. I know in my head Cade is perfectly on track, but it's the worrier in me that sits there and thinks "Why isnt he able to do that yet?"

I will forever wonder if the things I did before I knew I was pregnant will come back to haunt me later in life. If that New Years Eve, two days before the big fat positive, if that night will come into play later on when we're struggling to learn fractions or long division. If when a teacher suggests medication for ADHD because he doesnt want to stay in his desk all day, if I'll think back to that December and wonder if there why. I don't know how to let go of things...

But it's Easter today. Happy Easter. :-D

Hopefully I'll be able to have a good one... looking like another day at home with no one around and no car. *sigh* I'll take what I can get...